13 Feb Evangelica Pt. II

Crossing out days on a calendar is such
Relief and ominous refrain.
I should have said that I felt as much
When I was trying to ascertain

What I could say when later that night
I would be coming back to visit her.
She said, “Hello,” I’m sure to be polite.
In that way, I guess we are similar.

All I managed was “Things won’t always go your way,”
As if that’s something she didn’t believe.
I was too weak to finish what I wanted to say,
I was even too weak to get up to leave.

It was something we mostly understood
That something had gone terribly wrong.
If I had the courage to tell her, I would
Have said “I’ve prayed for you all along –

“To be given more love than I could deliver.
Yes – for love in perpetuity.
For I live as a leaf floating on a river
I only go where love will bring me.

“And I pray that you will somehow find
A fraction of what GOD has given me.”
Unsaid is stayed, and when she left us behind
I prayed that she’d be there in eternity.